Friday, January 25, 2008

Benan VIII: A Tribute

(updates at end of entry)

I may not know him that well at all, tapi rasa kehilangan satu sinar yang amat sangat.

He was my age. And at 35, he has indeed led a remarkable life.

From the visitors indicator on my blog, I saw that people came "searching" for him, practically from all around the globe.

He's got thousands praying for him, indeed.

At 35, he may not know more than half of these people, but he has left such great impacts on very many of us, ranging across the age and background spectrum.

At 35, I lead a very mundane, almost normal life. But he? He has carved his niche in the hearts of very many great leaders, thinkers and laymen alike.

I may not know you that well, Dear Ben, but it is an honour for me to even know you in that twinkle of time. You are, indeed, like a meteorite ~ leaving unforgettable passing ray to everyone that you passed by.

The world can never be the same without a person like you, Ben. Tidak akan ada penggantinya.

May you rest in peace, dan ditempatkan di sisi mereka yang soleh dan beriman.

And allow me to quote on Dipendra, Ben's friend, "Shine on you crazy diamond."

One hellufa rare crazy-diamond, you are.

Al-Fatihah...

** Read also:
1. Info on Ben's pengkebumian today before solat Jumaat.
2. Ben's "lil bro" 's heart-rendering entry here (do read the accompanying letter from Ben to him dated 1997. Sedih...).
3. A Farewell Tribute from an old friend, Mr. A M Ubaidah S (do read too a tribute of the 2nd commentator, "a voice", in Mr. Ubaidah's comment box).
4. Abg Fudzail's tribute to Ben here.
5. Gartblue's own brief memory of him here.
6. Becok's entry.

26 January 2008, 2:46pm:
This morning I woke up, something about Ben's passing over stirred my thoughts.

I remember the last time we visited him last 10th January at the hospital, it was a Thursday.

I have this 'thing' about me eventually leaving the world, that should my turn finally arrives, I pray that I would go on the best day to go in the week (Khamis malam Jumaat), fullmoon, dan bulan Islam yang baik. Well I may not be the best person to go on the best day, tapi, you know, it's one of the things you pray about, among other things.

While watching Ben's friends surrounding him with prayers that day, deep down I myself pray that Allah would take Ben on the best day of the week. If not on that particular day, which happened to be Thursday, then May Allah saves him further, until the best other Thursday.

And it dawned on me this morning that He did take Ben on a Thursday, and was buried on Friday before gelincir matahari. The day he went was the 16th day of the Islamic month, hence the moon was still in its full stage.

Beautiful, no? Rezeki untuk orang baik-baik, pastinya ada. Alhamdulillah.

I think we should all bookmark this guy, his 'lil bro' that I'm not quite sure what his name is. His new entry after Ben's burial, here.

Also, DSAI's, Kickdefella's and Cocodilly's.

I should sms Juny and apologize for not being able to show up for Ben's tahlils due to Abang's tight deadline this coming Monday. Have done it by my own the last two nights, the least I can do...

f~

9 comments:

fade said...

Met him during PPM 90' when we lost our match against MCKK. I was the 3rd speak. He gave his speech and sat down. I asked myself who could this gentleman be? I found that our over the next 10 years reading the papers. Remarkable individual.

Roti Kacang Merah said...

fade
see? you met him just once, but he sticks in your mind for decades on end.

don't you wish we could all be just like him...?

thanks for dropping by!

blackpurple @ jowopinter said...

AlFatehah.

May Allah bless his soul.

Pewaris Reformasi said...

Al-Fatihah untuk Ben.

Thanks for linking the post to my blog.

Sebenarnya untuk saya, tidak ada kata untuk menceritakan pengalaman singkat bersama Ben.

Masih saya ingat, saat bertatih dalam gerakan pelajar, saya mahu suntikan Ben dalam pembinaan wilayah intelek saya dan Ben menawarkan buku untuk untuk dipinjam.

Sayangnya perhubungan kami terputus. Saya belum menjenguk kantung simpanan email2 yg lama kerana saya pasti ada 1 email berharga yg dikongsi arwah kepada saya saat dia memimpin gerakan pelajar di luar negara.

Moga akan hadir lagi anak muda seperti Ben.

Al-Fatihah..

Anonymous said...

assalamualaikum

i just want to thank you for the blog n the updates on ben's condition until the end. i am sure most of his frens get their info from this blog. thanks.

al fatihah

Roti Kacang Merah said...

jowopinter
oh thy celebrity blogger, I am not worthy of you dropping-by here! Terima kasih kerana singgah!

Ya, semoga Allah mempermudahkan perjalanan Ben di alam sana, Aaaaamiiin...

pewaris reformasi
sebenarnya satu-satu pertemuan saya dengan Juny pada Januari 10 yang lepas, saya ada mencadangkan kepada Juny untuk buat satu buku tentang Ben and his legacies, and his background that most of us do not quite know about. Buku tu kemudiannya boleh jadi bahan rujukan of th Great Youth LEaders of Malaysia.

thanks for sharing your stories, ya.

anony 1/26
my utmost pleasure! these are not only for the updating of Ben's friends, but also for my own record of events. i just hope that some of the items about Ben here may not be too privy for him and his family. no intention for it to be, honestly...

thanks for dropping by, ya.

Pewaris Reformasi said...

Salam.

Ya, nampaknya kita merasai sesuatu yang sama. Entah kenapa hingga saat ini kehilangan Benan sangat saya rasa walaupun saya cukup pasti masa saya berpeluang mendengar ucapannya dan berbual terhad dengannya adalah sangat terhad.

Ya, saya sangat setuju adanya tulisan tentang Benan. Saya volunteer untuk bantu jika ada keinginan untuk itu.

Kakak, di Koleq, setahu saya hingga sesudah itu, Benan membahasakan Rafizi Ramli sebagai adik. Rafizi back for good now kat Petronas. Saya percaya abang Zunar familiar dengan nama Rafizi Ramli.

Roti Kacang Merah said...

pewaris reformasi
oh, koleq9094 tu, THE Rafizi Ramli, kah?

Selalu dengar/terbaca nama dia. Tapi bila tanya suami, dia pun tak kenal. Mungkin Abg Din Nasution kenal, agaknya.

Atau mungkin pernah terjumpa, tapi tak kenal muka.

if koleq9094 IS Rafizi Ramli, then saya setuju dengan pendapat dia tentang autobiography on Ben ~ seelok-eloknya dimulakan oleh kaum keluarga, barulah 'tepat', rasanya. And then orang-orang luar bolehlah tokok tambah dalam perkenalan mereka dengan Ben, dak?

Pewaris Reformasi said...

ya..agree.

Rafizi dulunya aktif juga dgn parti tapi khabarnya kini lebih byk menumpu kepada hal2 koleq dan kerjayanya selepas pulang dari UK.

Semoga dia sihat dan terus dgn cita perjuangan. Dia mungkin org yang paling rapat dgn arwah Benan. Tapi spt ditulisnya, mungkin byk isu bersifat peribadi.

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