Thursday, January 10, 2008
Abang, Abg Zul Noordin and I went to visit Ben at the Sunway Hospital ICU at 5pm. The family took him back to the hospital this morning when he insisted on having a dialysis.
We reached there and there were already so many people around. Apart from his mom and younger sister Juni (a glimpse of green tee on the left), there were also DSAI (in checkered shirt on the right), Ezam (by the bedside), Abg Saifuddin, Ben's closest mates and aides - Rezal (in maroon t-shirt) and Dani, DSAI's lawyers and a few other close 'pejuang' friends.
By the time we arrived, docs gave him an hour-odd more. Ben's organs have all shut down. He was drifting in and out of conscious. Everyone was sullen, eyes tearing-up. Ben's time was visibly nearing.
By 5.30pm, Ben's mom gave permission to the doctors to disengage everything and to prep him for home.
While waiting for Ben's release, I introduced myself to Juni, Ben's very lovely baby sis. Back in my 2nd year in Edinburgh, Juni and friends pernah menumpang my house in St. Catherine's Place for a few days. Juni's friend was my housemate's ex-schoolmate back in TKC.
Understandably, Juni did not recall of me. 'Coz back then they only came back to our house to sleep after pusing-pusing Edinburgh.
That said she is still the lovely yet simple, soft-spoken and mild-mannered lady I remembered her to be. And so I wished her further strength ('coz I'm sure she's been very strong about her bro's condition all these years).
Later on while still waiting for Ben to be wheeled out, Juni approached me and apologized for not remembering me. We had small talks about her brother.
She said, Ben has been diabetic since he was 17. And they have been very very close eversince forever, since there are only the two of them adik-beradik.
She told me she had way too many fond memories of him. He has forever been protective of her. When they were kids, Ben once, out of the blue, bought her an eraser at school and asked his friend to send it to her in her classroom.
And Ben would always protect her and hide his male friends away from her, especially the ones from MCKK. He would say, "Jangan kahwin dengan budak koleq (MCKK)! Tak elok!" Hahaha.
She mentioned that Ben have always wanted to die young but yet leave a mark, "...like a meteorite. I pass by everyone and leave an everlasting spark that everyone shall remember for long," she relayed what Ben likes telling her.
I told Juni to write a book about the Ben she knows. He is indeed like a meteor, amazing memorable light that passes so many lives, he would never ever be forgotten.
I mentioned how strong her mom looked. She said if only I knew how much torn her mother had been. They've had sleepless nights about Ben. She said, they may sound selfish, but they're still not ready to let Ben go. But they know how much suffering Ben has been in, especially in the past year.
Even her 15-month old daughter who is so attached to Ben and whom Ben also called "My Daughter" knew that his uncle is slipping away. She actually wailed in the ambulance that took her uncle home yesterday evening...
We parted when Ben was wheeled out to the ambulance waiting downstairs.
My prayers that Allah permudahkan perjalanan Ben kelak ke dan di alam sana, dan moga Allah kurniakan kekuatan yang tak terhingga kepada ahli-ahli keluarga tersayang dan kawan-kawan terapat Ben.