Thursday, August 09, 2007

Pahlawan Hati

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In The Sun today… sailor Azhar Mansor lauded as “Pahlawan Bangsa” by the AMENOE congregation.

Him, Pahlawan Bangsa??? Like, whottt, zefark???

Dorang ni ingat lagi ke tidak dengan Allahyarham Mokhtar Dahari???

And with all due respect to my husband, I’d rather have TunM as the Pahlawan Bangsa.

Honestly, right.

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Went for CIDB’s Green Card one-day course yesterday. There were subjects of site handling, transportation, peralatan, hazardous stuff, site safety and health, etc. Bagi orang yang biasa masuk site, benda-benda ni macam refresher’s course je la kan. But in order to get yourself covered by the Insuras Berkumpulan Takaful provided by the CIDB, you’d still have to sit for the course. Macam, nak penuhi syarat je lah. And then baru you get the green card plus the insurance. Every two years renew RM50 je. Okay what.

Tapi sebenarnya best juga course tu sebab every 4-5 minutes the lecturer would share jokes/funny vid-clips prior to pretty graphical pics or clips on accidents on sites. Aiyoh, tak tahan lah ~ you see kulit jari tertanggal from the jari, orang mati kena hempap bongkah granit, orang hancur kena hempap kontena, rupa daging yang kena electrocuted, rupa tangan yang masuk jari pengisar, badan & daging badan yang kena stamping kereta, kaki kena tembus paku, tengkorak retak kena hempap batu bata… erk, as of now pun perut aku bergelodak bila teringat balik.

The lecturer, having already immuned to the sights, kadang-kadang siap pi zoom-in zoom-out kan the pics or even terlupa nak tukar slide during discussions. Adoi. Aku siap terpaksa suruh cikgu supaya tukar slide before dia nak tanya kami apa-apa. Tak tahan akak. Fenin kepala. Memang sah sah tak leh jadi doktor la kan.

Half-way through the day, Abang called kata dia tak sihat coz dia pergi urut semalamnya and sakit-sakitnya baru nak terasa, jadi dia tengah on the way back nak rest. Nampak gaya, aku kena balik sendiri la tu.

So, after the lecture, I walked some half a mile away to the Star Sultan Ismail. Aiyoh I’m tellin’ ya… kalau pakai 3” heels, jangan cuba la nak jalan kat sidewalk along the Jln Sultan Ismail between Medan Tuanku ke Star station ~ sidewalk dia ya Rabbi, dah la licin despite of the tiles being pavers, pastu the sidewalk all slanting at a slope towards the jalan pula tu due the akar-akar matured trees kat situ. Aduila…. Cram rasa betis ni. Dah la nak kena control ayu tak moh kasi tergelincir jatuh lagi, jalan kena senget-senget pula tu.

But the ride home was uneventful. Abang picked me up at Salak South. Cuma bila sampai rumah, Abang sambung lagi bantai tidur till maghrib. Kejut dia bangun and tanya nak makan apa, he asked only for egg-banjo. So we had egg-banjo for dinner. Before 9pm dia dah sambung tidur balik. Hmm, dah berapa hari dia asyik tidur awal. Memang la he’s tired and all that, but you know, it just makes you feel… lonely, very.

So, since there’s Gubra on Kirana 23 last night, I ended up watching it alone. Jangan harap la Abang nak tengok filem Yasmin Ahmad. For some reason, he doesn’t like her. Maybe because Ms.Yasmin pernah rejected being interviewed by his paper dulu, tak tahu la kan. But heck, it just made me missed having mutual companionship watching arty-farty movies, I really do.

And while watching Gubra, terasa macam nak rendam kaki dalam air panas, so I boiled some water and made meself a really nice feet-soak, and a really good mug of coffee… which is a BIG mistake, the coffee.

By half 11, I was still so very wide awake. And then I saw a box full of my old albums kat UK, dua tahun tak buka-buka kotak tu (sejak pack-up for my Big Day in Dec 2005), ada terperosok bawah kerusi art Abang. Tak berani buka. So many really nice memories and nostalgias. Zaman innocence and straightforwardness. And being 20kg lighter, hahaha.

Tapi sebab Abang dah bising that kotak sabun powder tu sangat buruk and hence kena buang cepat-cepat, I decided to kemas-kemas malam tadi juga.

And you guessed it right… I went all nostalgic and melancholic. I missed those days, those simple times. When reality of life hasn’t hit you (hard) just yet. It made me remembered the film “My Best Friend’s Wedding”. It made me hummed “…Someday, when I’m awfully low, when the world is cold, I would feel a glow, just thinking oooooof you, and the way you look, tonight…”… all through out the rest of the night, hingga tidur. That was “our” song, and the scene for this song in the movie was the most memorable one… still never failed to bring tears to my eyes…

I finally turned in at midnite. Tossing and turning, darn the coffee. Aku rasa aku finally lelap pukul 3am kot. And then terjaga pukul 4.40am. Sepatutnya kena bangun sahur pukul 5am, nak bayar puasa, but decided to skip this time sebab sungguh tak cukup tidur. And woke up in a daze at half 6….

Tadi before noon Abang called lagi and said he's still not feeling well and planned to go back by noon to rest. There goes another Malam Jumaat la, kan. Heh heh. But what else is new.

“…Someday, when I’m awfully low…."

f~

9 comments:

Amy said...

Tak tau pun Kak Leen ada blog lagi satu..Alah bang Zul tido awal, Labu and Labi kan ada..
Amy kalau minum nescafe malam2 macam takde effect pun, tido gak macam biasa (sbb mmg kuat tido kut! hihi) tapi kalau amy berjaga tengok bola ke zaman2 ada world cup tu, pagi amy sure minum nescafe tak nak bagi ngantuk - psycho kan diri walaupun sebenarnya still ngantuk..
Amy pun suka citer my best friend's wedding sbb macam ada kena mengena with my love life. Same goes to Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. And I won Zul's heart..yeayy! :D
*hugs* nanti Abang Zul dah sihat, dia teman la kak lin ok? mowahs

shabar said...

Faszt, if it's any consolation to you, I've been alone too since last sunday. Dearest hubby is in Russia for business trip until friday next week. Aritu dah pegi 3 weeks. Then balik M'sia pun ada meeting the whole week..tak tido rumah - kena dok hotel. Padahal meeting kat KL gak tu. Belum lagi panas kat sini dah pegi sana balik. Ni dengarnya orang sana requested him to come again end of this month *sigh*...I guess we both understood the word "lonely" very much.

Roti Kacang Merah said...

amy

haaa, ni kena tulis kisah cinta awak dgn zul ni!!!

tuuuulis! tuuuulis! tuuuulis!

shabar

in some ways, yeah, ada persamaan. bezanya ~ when lonely, you resort to your kids and baby, and i to my kitties.

and sometimes, physical presence but with mind&emotional absence pun can make you pretty lonely juga... kan? it makes you feel.... un-needed.

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akula said...

Pahlawan Bangsa? Macam-macam la title nak diujudkan. Tak dek kerja lain la tu. Buat lah benda yang bermanfaat sikit.

goboklama said...

move on dearie,takde guna nak kenang citer lama. Well,sometimes me do the same thing,heheh.. It's not that easy kan especially 'when I'm awfully low...'

Roti Kacang Merah said...

akula
itula dianya... dalam banyak-banyak pahlawan bangsa M'sia, they have to pick a sailor.

qissst
dah lama move on dah... but once in a while when loneliness hits you, it's pretty much difficult to control how you feel, kan???

cakapaje said...

Salam RKM,

My first time sini after seeing your comment at 10-11: 22 days after; thank you for visiting.

Sebenarnya, I've been here on several occasions cuma tak buat komen. Today, I glanced at you profile lalu terus ter-alamak! So, it would not be un-lelakisopan (ungentleman) of me not to leave a comment kan?

Anyway, salam kenalan dan salam juga kepada abang ye.

Roti Kacang Merah said...

cakapaje

Jauhnya dia drop-by!!! hahaha

Salam perkenalan, too!

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