Macam tak de keja.
Baca baca and baca blog Zetty hari ni.
I read when Zetty was ditched in 2003... my eyes welled. Aku boleh ingat lagi perasaan aku masa kena ditched dulu... long term relationship, so hopeful, so much in love, tiba-tiba bam! smack right into your face, your course in life greatly altered, all turned 360 degrees.
I read on when Zetty's dad got cancer (March 2006)... my eyes welled. Aku sampai call Mak tanya sapa staff MARDI yang tengah treated for cancer, okay. Mak kata, researcher MARDI memang ramai kena Cancer. Alhamdulillah, ada hikmah Ayah kena pindah KL balik dari Johor tahun '86 dulu, and sejak tu Mak dah tak jadi researcher dah tapi more like a PR and Administrator.
I read on further on Zetty's working-trip to Edinburgh (May 16, 2006), complete with familliar photos of places I used to live in for 5 years... my eyes welled too. This time bukan sebab tersentuh dengan entry dia. Tapi aku rindukan Edinburgh. Rindu banget. Aku sihat kat sana. Udara sejuk nyaman, which apparently works well with my being. Adab manusia kat sana tak bahhhhlulll macam kat sini. I grew up becoming a woman di sana... umur 20 - 26 tahun.
Tak lama lagi Fairuz (kawan baik aku, also an architect, was also my housemate in Edinburgh for 3 years) + suami akan pindah kerja di downsouth U.K. She told me that bila dah stable sikit setahun dua nanti, she wants to move back up and work in Edinburgh. Am so very happy for her. So so very happy. I know she would be much more appreciated there. She's a brilliant architect. Kat M'sia, kerja creative macam ni tak ke mana, sebab sistem sini bahhhhlulll for creativity.
And pagi tadi Fairuz cousin ter-rapat aku flew back to London on a working-visit for 2 weeks, pastu he'll be taking 2 weeks off... presumably pasti dia akan naik Edinburgh for the Fringe Festival!
Aiyohhhh.... tak tahan banget. Aku nak ke sana semula, to get well, and to reminisce.
Tapi, segalanya ini yang berlaku aku percaya ada hikmah. Pasti.